A Realization

So I am realizing that I really need more time to myself. I very rarely have any alone time. I don't feel like my time is my own. When I am at work it is my employer's time. When I am home, it's time to be with the husband.

The other day Carlos and I were sitting on the couch together trying to decide what we wanted to do in that moment. I decided that I wanted to play a game on my computer. He stated, "Well, since we're here together I was really hoping that we could do something together." What was my response? "Umm... we're always here together."

I'm rarely home when he's not home. He spends all day in the house while I am at work, and likes spending time with me when I get home. I appreciate that, but at the same time...It would be nice if I felt more free to do whatever I want to do. I feel pressured to either cook dinner, clean, go grocery shopping, etc., or to be spending time with Carlos.

My alone time is my recovery time, my time to process and de-stress. So... what am I going to do about it? Well I am not going to do nothing about it. I think I'll start out by discussing with Carlos some sort of plan to allow me to have more self time.

I know a lot of people never have time to themselves, particularly parents, but this is something I need right now. It's not that I need to be alone in the house, it's that I need to feel free take part in activities that involve only me (other than housework, etc).

What's new? Not much.

So what's new...?

Well relating to my previous blog, our cars are still pretty much in the same condition. However, Carlos did fix the locks on his car. Our kitchen electricity is still working most of the time, and our refrigerator has also been working well.

So far no luck at all on the job hunt for Carlos. I do think that I am becoming more patient in that area though.

Last month Carlos' dad got married! Carlos and I provided the music for the ceremony. It was a very nice, small, and simple ceremony. Perfect for them!



The above photo shows Carlos' Dad and new stepmom (Ricardo & Christy), they are the ones holding hands in the front row. The other people are their children (and children-in-law) and parents.

This coming weekend my sister and I are throwing a Halloween party at my house. I am hoping to take plenty of photos to share!