So I am realizing that I really need more time to myself. I very rarely have any alone time. I don't feel like my time is my own. When I am at work it is my employer's time. When I am home, it's time to be with the husband.
The other day Carlos and I were sitting on the couch together trying to decide what we wanted to do in that moment. I decided that I wanted to play a game on my computer. He stated, "Well, since we're here together I was really hoping that we could do something together." What was my response? "Umm... we're always here together."
I'm rarely home when he's not home. He spends all day in the house while I am at work, and likes spending time with me when I get home. I appreciate that, but at the same time...It would be nice if I felt more free to do whatever I want to do. I feel pressured to either cook dinner, clean, go grocery shopping, etc., or to be spending time with Carlos.
My alone time is my recovery time, my time to process and de-stress. So... what am I going to do about it? Well I am not going to do nothing about it. I think I'll start out by discussing with Carlos some sort of plan to allow me to have more self time.
I know a lot of people never have time to themselves, particularly parents, but this is something I need right now. It's not that I need to be alone in the house, it's that I need to feel free take part in activities that involve only me (other than housework, etc).
2 comments:
I know just what you mean. It is wonderful to spend time with yourself once in a while. I think everyone should get to do this. I will be in a similar situation when your dad retires. I have wondered, like you, when I will ever get to be by myself. I love the companionship, but it is really nice to just be alone sometimes. We all need a break sometimes, to meditate, be able to be aware of our own thoughts and feelings. Kind of like putting ourselves together again.
Everyone needs alone time. It helps us to recharge.
nana is your aunt theresa.
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